^  *that is a link to a blog I posted @ 5am one night back in 2008.

click above. read. contemplate.

i think we need a revolution.

do it.

NOTE: so the link doesnt work i realized, so i`ll copy and paste the post.

“Lust has replaced Love. Disappointing truth”

(the subject of this blog is generally speaking,
i am not completely ruling out the possibility of
love, just saying, too many seem to be in lust not love.)


‘…i want someone provocative and talkative
but youre shallow as a shower…’

that pretty much summarizes everything,
& this is the beginning of a long rant..

Why is it so impossible to meet someone who:
questions things, and makes me think and strive to understand the world more,
someone who will talk, and is fun, funny, sweet, honest and GENUINE?
not shallow, I know appearances are what people notice first, but why dont people
seem to look PAST that and realize there are more important things? Maybe nobody
thinks this way but me, but I wish people would be less shallow and pay more attention
to ones’ personality, morals etc. Im not pessimistic, im realistic. I can see why divorce
rates are so much higher nowadays.

Wayy too many people seem to be in LUST not LOVE.
What ever happened to dating? What ever happened to
holding hands? What ever happened to just hanging out
and enjoying another person’s company, cuddling, kissing.
(not groping each other and full on making out)

Honestly. How can a relationship last if its all based on physical
attraction? You arent going to marry someone and only fuck them.
(pardon my language) You kind of have to talk to them, and soon
enough you will probably figure out you cant stand them, or that
you dont really LOVE them and since youre a shallow SLEEZE,
youll meet someone else thats more physically attractive and CHEAT.
Then what? DIVORCE happens.


It is just frustrating and disappointing to me that thats the way the world is.


I want to find someone genuine, someone that will be there for me
because they truely like me for my soul, & appearance secondary.


Thats my conclusion that my 18 years of living has led me to come up with.


That wraps it up for tonight, its almost 5 am.
(there will probably be editing to this when
im more awake and my thoughts are more collected..)
** EDIT. oh and i dont like how ‘i love you’ is thrown around so easily in relationships, honestly, dont say it if you dont MEAN IT. theres a difference between saying i love to you a friend and to your gf/bf. you better mean it, and if you dont know if you do or not, you better not say those three words. “i love you” has definitely lost its value over the years, its total crap.




but I will always have hope,
true love will come to those who are patient,
i believe.
XOXO
alli.


**EDITjuly7
this is how i work:i rarely ever will say i like someone (in the context of wanting to be
their gf or whatever) i am very careful with what i say, i often am merely interested in
a guy but i know i dont fully know enough about them to say if i really have feelings
for them in that way. i dont like to say things before i fully know if i mean them, but
i am easily interested in a guy who makes me smile and a guy who is just genuine,
adorable, adventurous and funny. im straight forward, if i care and want to get to know
someone more, i do make an effort to put myself out there, but i wont try excessively,
i will only try so much, if i dont feel that you are interested as well, what is the point?
i am not naive, i dont want what i cant have, i know better than to waste my time like
that. time is not ever promised. time is constant and doesnt stop for anyone. that is
all for now.

so if youre interested or like me, show me. dont play games.
dont make things awkward by pouring your heart out if you dont
think that will go well… theres a way to go about it. but i need people
to be straight forward, im so done with trying to decipher what
messages guys are trying to send me. i dont want to mess around,
if you are looking for that, go look elsewhere and spare me the
headache, please.